I Wish To Make A Difference

By Boomer Sunshine

I wish to make a difference because I am not yet in a state of eternal bliss. The destiny of a living organism is to strive for perfection in an attempt to better its own existence and the existence of the environment that surrounds it. Each living creature will assume a role of harmony in its place in the universe. It will adapt. By every action, it will improve upon reality. Even in death, it serves as a gear that furthers the progress of an eternal machine.

As the organism strives to reach perfection, it will eventually conclude that the goal is unreachable. It will then be faced with two options; it can break away from the machine and become an independent organism, neither servant or master, or it can conclude that it IS the machine and assume that the betterment of the whole is the betterment of the self, and vice versa.

In the former path, purpose is demoted to pleasure seeking and moment-by-moment living. This would seem superficial and meaningless to the casual observer, yet this mind state also discards a goal. By accepting the goal as unattainable and relinquishing it, the organism has become free of its destiny to strive for perfection and can now be truly content to exist. The journey, not the destination, acquires predominance in this mind state.

The latter path, however, does not abandon the pursuit of perfection. It rather glorifies the destination and bases all actions on the quest for this unreachable goal. The "hunter of perfection" will attempt to concretize perfection, giving it names such as "God", and locations such as "Heaven". These abstract ideals serve as a drive to achieve perfection, furthering the betterment of the organism and accelerating its fulfillment of potential.

There are pros and cons to both thought patterns. By abandoning the pursuit of perfection, it can be said that one will distance oneself from the "rat race" that ordinarily makes up day-to-day existence. One will also live a completely content life full of acceptance and happiness. Yet there are strong arguments against it. There is no longer any reason to better yourself or surroundings. One is assuming that the present is as good as it gets. The organism is relinquishing the drive to improve upon its situation.

Conversely, by shouldering the constant burden of a dream, it is highly unlikely that one will be content for long, for one is always striving for better. However, the suspension of immediate gratification for a distant, if not unreachable, goal might have some interesting consequences. The evolution of the consciousness is virtually unlimited and exponential with this attitude. Eventually, the human mind's evolution will reach a crescendo, uniting the universe and destroying the physical existence that binds us.

This is the difference I wish to make. I want to unite and destroy the universe, and create a new one in my image. It is man's destiny to become god, yet we must first destroy our creator. After all, every act of destruction is also an act of creation.