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I am a seeker of truths. I am a soul who has been "awakened" and now an awakener of other souls. Two years ago, something happened to me that I can only explain as a kind of "awakening" from a haze that was my everyday life. The embers of "who I was was" that stirred deep within me were set aflame when I went to see a movie. I wasn't expecting this experience, which is why in part I think it happened. I left the theatre crying and with the most throbbing headache I've ever had, but not the average kind of headache crying gives you. This was the kind of headache characters in movies have after waking up from a coma. The world seemed new to me and it was as if I was remembering my life and who I was for the very first time. Since then, my life has changed in so many ways. And now it has led me here, to this new forum of shared thoughts and ideas. Like the first time I posted my "awakening" experience on a public website, I am again feeling this fear of "Is this really the right place for me to post this?" But like two years ago, I'm willing to take this risk again because I know how important it is to share my experience with as many people as I can, with the hope that others who have had a similar experience, or at least the desire to understand more about what this is about might have the courage to come together and find one another through this blog. It is my hope and belief that I will read the stories of others who are also "seekers" here. Welcome.

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Have You Ever Experienced A Mind Shut Down?

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Contributed by: Dianne Perea on 1/25/2008

One of the YourHub editors once told me that my writing was "prolific". At the time he told me this, I felt as if I could write for days about dozens of ideas tumbling around in my mind.

About two weeks ago,that part of my mind suddenly decided it was going to just shut down. I don't know why or what triggered this closure of thoughts, but it was as if something just said "We're closed now." I have been waiting for this part of my brain to open again, but this part of my mind has a mind of its own. I am not in charge of it...it is in charge of itself. It decides when it's time to open again, not me. So for those who may have wondered if I'm still here, I am. But my mind is a bit like the Hollywood writers and seems to have gone on a short strike. Perhaps it's recharging. Maybe my body needs some attention. Maybe it's as simple as I need to do some laundry and grocery shopping and dust the house.

I am right now reading the books Sacred Geometry and A Beginner's Guide to Constructing the Universe...you know, just some light reading before I go to sleep. Maybe I should read People Magazine, Real Simple, or maybe some of my children's books to unleash the doors once again of the part of my mind that lets my thoughts wander to far off places and write about things like "Does The Earth Have a Soul?"

I don't feel comfortable being in this state of closure, yet this is the reality of what's going on with me. I am a truth seeker and a truth giver and I never want to hold anything back when I dialogue here. YourHub is my garden...my happy place...and I am not happy right now because I have not been able to visit my garden lately. I wanted to check in with everyone and just let you all know that I am still here...just in a state of "waiting" for mind to say "We're Open Again."

I blame winter. Spring...oh precious spring...you are right around the corner waiting to revive all the live that is so eager to emerge and thrive once again.

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